There are so many thoughts, questions, concerns, and more going through my head tonight that it's tough to get it all out on "paper" in an organized fashion. So bear with me here.
First of all, I had an amazing day today. I was one of three team members who designed and painted a playroom at the public hospital (ie poor people's hospital) and I'm so proud of the work we did. It turned out absolutely beautiful and the nurses and the children were stunned and so appreciative. They loved it!
I'm so overflowing with gratitude right now that I can barely get through this without crying. I feel so blessed to be here and to be having these experiences. So blessed to be able to witness the worst of circumstances, but the best of people. I'm so thankful to have the time and the resources to lend a helping a hand. I feel like I'm gaining so much more than I'm giving. That's a feeling that can be hard to come by sometimes. (Especially as a professional salesperson.) Seeing how the people live here and how I live back home makes me unbelievably thankful. At the same time I feel ashamed for how I've managed all that God has given me. I haven't given nearly as much as I could and there are so many better ways that I could be investing God's resources that I have been. I've learned many lessons here.
I wrote earlier this week that while I like it here, I haven't decided to pack up and live here. I still haven't decided to live here, but I wish I could have a little more time here. I really enjoy the slower pace of life. I haven't really missed my phone, or my Tivo, or the news, or any of the other things that I've been semi-addicted to at home. Here it's so much easier to live life God's way and it's a really great feeling going to bed at night feeling like you've really accomplished something to be proud of. I'm really starting to worry about readjusting to my American life and how will I be different than I was when I got on the plane two weeks ago. I won't really know until I get back and comprehend all that I've seen and done and spend time back in my regular life. I suppose it's not really worth worrying over. All will work out in the end according to God's calling for my life as long as I listen to what he's whispering to me.
I wish you could all experience this with me. I'm excited to show you the photos and tell you all about it, but it will never quite live up to seeing it in person. I would really encourage everyone to step out of their comfort zone and do something that you've always wanted to do. Something that will make you proud and something you think God might have in mind for you. I promise that you won't be disappointed. We only get one life. One chance to do all that we dream of doing. Don't waste your chance here on earth to make a difference. God created us to praise him, to love him, and to love one another. I can testify that when you're doing those things, a feeling that is indescribable comes over you and you want to do all you can to keep it going.
That's what I'm really working on now... how will I keep this going?
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